I'm a terrible person, but the height of that horridness is when I'm jealous

ahhh
so like I have a friend - wait scratch that -  best friend - named Mackie Clarke.  Honestly, sometimes these days she's the only one there for me.  Like she is one of those people that all I do is talk about myself to because mainly the rest of the people I hang out with like to talk about themselves, and never have the time of day to hear me say something.  I mean I need to talk to people to - I love talking about my friend's lives and I'm a really good listener I just idk i take way too much advantage of Mackie and it kills me because she is so good to me and amazing in general.  I mean we've had our tough spots - pretty much the ONLY tough spots are about and around her very best friend, Sian Armstrong, and like so I pretty much loathe Sian.  And lately, after school when I'm skipping basketball conditioning, we always reach that conversation about how I think Sian is a terrible person and everyone around me agrees unless they are new and Mackie thinks she is the greatest person.  I know that Sian is a great friend to Mackie but at the same time she is absolutely terrible person and especially an amazingly HORRIBLE friend to her.  So, today at 8:54 pm, I was looking through my email and I found a video that my white sister, Rebecca Edge, had sent me and it was the "I have Owl Eyes" video haha and I saw a comment from Sian.  i clicked on her channel and one of her two videos were "my Parting Gift"
and it was for Mackie.  I watched it and honestly it was so sweet.  It's pretty much what I've always wanted to do - make a montage of videos of me and my friends.  I always say "Sian is a terrible person, but she reels in people so easily.  She makes them love her.  Being her friend makes you feel special.  Like Ali on Pretty Little Liars.  Making you feel special is especially effective on such modest people [like Mackie].  It makes you see through the insane horridness that is her personality."  Watching this video, made me so happy for Mackie because she had such a great best friend.  It even made me see blind - I didn't see the bad parts of her because that was blinded out with the perfection and bright spot that Mackie was.  I was so jealous because the one thing I've always wanted to do was make a montage of my best friend and I.  It makes me really sad because I know I can't do it with my best friend the way that Mackie and Sian did it.  I sorta think Sarina is ashamed of me.  It irks me to know that she won't ever do something weird to make her look an ounce bad.  But I have seen her do it - just with her popular and cool friends.  I used to share everything with her and we used to be weird together, but now all she cares is about her image and all I am trying to do is not lose her.  I am so jealous of Mackie and Sian because I want what they had.  I want that friendship.
...And, now, I'm crying
Haha
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Tomorrow I'm going to apologize to Mackie.  She is honestly such a good friend.  I don't want to make her feel bad because to be honest Sian may be horrid in my opinion but everyone deserves someone that makes them feel special.

You know when your home alone and you feel so lonely that it sorta liek forces you to think about all the bad parts of the day - and then you start uncontrollably crying.  Except there is no one to comfort me.  No one to tell me I'm not.  I can't even call my best friend because she doesn't care and she isn't around.  She's too busy with the girl that took away the one person who could make me feel better. How wonderful.

Who knew that I'd know once again the feeling of your best friend not being there?

honestly, "bitch" doesn't really affect me but who knew that calling me an invalid would hurt so much?

K one of those youtube videos

OK, so i always like watch those 10 Movie Kisses and etc., so I thought that I should do one.  I don't really care if people watch it or not - I'm just publishing my work.
K so i'm gonna be awkward and put top 11 instead of top 10 ya no :P
Top 11 Kissess
- Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince Bonnie Wright and Daniel Radcliff: Ginny and Harry 
- House of Anubis: Peddie first kiss
- Red Riding Hood: the alley 
- Lord of the Rings: Aragorn and Arwen Kiss
- Pirates of the Carribean: Will and Elizabeth "No he's a pirate"
- Titanic: Jack and Rose "Together at last"
- Wizards of Waverly Place: Alex and Mason "Just kiss me" - kiss in the rain
- One Tree Hill: Peyton and Lucas Life in a glass house 107 "I want it all"
- Glee: Klaine "You take my Breath away"
- Zoey 101: Logan and Quinn
- The Amazing Spiderman: Gwen and Peter "Your spi--" "Shut up"

Bottom 6
Zoey 101
WOWP
Titanic
Peddie
Glee
Pirates
Upper 5
Harry Potter
Red Riding Hood
One Tree Hill
Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Rings
The Amazing Spiderman

Ordering the bottom 6
11. HOA
10. Zoey 101
9. Wizards of Waverly Place
8. Glee
7. Pirates of the Carribean
6. Titanic

Ordering the top 5
5. Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
4. Harry Potter
3. One Tree Hill
2. Red Riding Hood
1. The Amazing Spiderman

;( amazing movie

and the tigers come at niiight............. ;( still crying cuz it was so beautiful

LOL

haha when a tree ent tells you not to be hasty and then takes you to a meeting where it takes them 2 hours for the ents to say hello to each other.

LOTR

Lord of the Rings

stuff about LOTR

maybe its just a phase and ill get over it
i think it is cuz it doesnt feel liek how i felt about hp
my dad told me that was a phase when i was like 6 and i guess if it was a phase - im still in it......

what im supposed to be doing

I'm supposed to be clenaing my room for the seventh consecutive day straight.
but instead at 12: 50 am on January 5, 2013 mmmhm i mean eight consecutive day - i am posting random stuff while sitting on bed loking at my computer and watch the two towers

OK how much i ♥ lotr cast

Kay - so Orlando bloom is like just so hot and amazing and BRITISH and just amazing - great actor and sexy eyes.


Billy Boyd, Dom Monahue, and Elijah Wood ---- so old but i still ♥ them soooo much.




Dom has the funniest humor ever and enlglish accent = hot.






Billy is so silly and i can't help but laugh at him when he talks with his amazing irish accent.






Elijah ----- eyes ♥.  

FROOOODOOO





Viggo is so strange.  He is more normal when he is playing an imaginary character that has extra long

 life that lives in a made-up world.  He is so STRANGE and RANDOM and AWKWARD outside of the 

screen.  I can't explain fully how he is when not acting - he is so amazing.  His humor is so funny and 

u can barely tell when he is jokign cuz he is always so SERIOUS TALKING but so SILLY without the 

factor of beeing a doofus.  ♥ the strawberry blonde dude

Strange things im doing at the moment

I'm multitasking ;)

k so
1) im drinking ginger ale out of a coffee mug...
2) im made a blog so i could talk to myself :) and im posting a bunch of my random thoughts on here - plus im bored - this is kinda like my journal

Wierdo is my name-o

My brother told me straight out that no girls like Lord of the Rings.
Well then.....

Regret...

Um...totally my Youtube Username/Email.
well I do love Percy Jackson but I wish it was marajpotter@gmail.com - i think i might make my new account that - later of course. Something personal liek that or something bout harry potter
I still love Selena Gomez but everyone judges me too harshly because I ♥ her.  I wish they didn't but then again i would make it more personal like marajpotter or something bout harrypotter or maybe lord of the rings

Eponine

Samantha Barks was amazing ♥

I can't help feeling like she was the most tragic victim of the friendship zone ever.

A change in heart -- conflict

Um okay, so I am like the biggest Harry Potter fan ever, and always hated Lord of the Rings.  So I learned that Orlando Bloom was in it, so I forced myself to watch Lord of the Rings, and I can't help but say that I fell in love with it.  Lord of the Rings movies were better than the Harry Potter Movies.  While Harry Potter taught me how to live, Lord of the Rings is an entire different level of fantasy.  it goes from a kids (even though harry potter is for everyone) book (intentionally by JK Rowling) to a teenager/adulthood movie.  I have also made that change and as much as Harry Potter I love, it looses my interest in the movies (the books are like bibles to me #justsayin) and I have to read the LOTR books and I have a feeling that I'll have no choice but to like them.  It's a tug of war in my heart.  A giant confict and idk how it'll turn out.  But I know ill always love Harry Potter, but it's so PG.  I never get tired of PG, but a PG13 just mite capture my interest - especially when its new.

A moment that Broke my Heart

In Les Miserables,
In the French Revolution, the students are discussing how to get the dead soldier's things, and the little boy full of courage - who stays there when they are fighting too - goes under the blockade and walks out and takes the things from the dead soldiers, and the French shoot him and he still keeps doing it - singing the entire time - and they shoot him dead.  And then his greatest companion there starts screaming.



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Top 10 Movies (to Me)

1. Super 8
2. The Perks of Being a Wallflower
3. Lord of the Rings trilogy
4. Harry Potter Films
5. Captain America: The First Avenger
6. MIB
7. Les Miserables
8. Transformers Movies
9. The Lucky One
10.  Aquamarine

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Accurate for now ;)
-MaraJPotter